Baby Maybe?

Well, tomorrow could be hospital day. 

I'll get back to that in just a second.  I haven't updated in a little while, because most of everything has been "wait and see."  I've had a few mentally and emotionally tough days over the past week or two.  I've had quite a bit of anxiety, about nothing in particular, and about everything. 

We had our shower this past Saturday.  It was great!  I had planned to include pictures, but I haven't had a chance to upload them, and tonight has been filled with more important things.

Like packing my bags for the hospital.  I had my first bi-weekly appointment today.  I knew last week that my labs weren't looking so great.  My numbers that need to be up are down, and the ones that need to be down are up.  My platelets are dropping, my bile acids and blood pressure are rising.  Tanya wants to see how today's labs come back before making a decision tomorrow, but we're getting to the point of needing continuous monitoring.  She prefers to err on the side of caution, and with the cholestasis (liver stuff), the risk of still birth is increased.  And we don't want to take any chances. 

She said if we make it to 34 weeks (next Wednesday), in her opinion, we're golden... if we make it to 35 weeks, that's icing on the cake, and she said if we make it to 36 weeks, we get sprinkles and a candle too!  So, I'm still aiming for that candle!  But the time in between may just be spent at the hospital. 

We still don't have a definite answer from the specialist, and she doesn't think we will without an amnio, before T's birth.  If it IS some type of skeletal dysplasia, a natural delivery could put him at a greater risk for neurological damages.  So, Rocky and I have discussed (and Tanya is in agreement), that we will probably opt for a c-section, regardless of the next growth ultrasound findings, just to keep Tristan away from any unnecessary risks.  We want a healthy baby and a healthy mommy. 

So for tonight, I'm packing my bags and waiting to see what tomorrow holds.